Chocolate Threat Neutralized!

I have chucked that Chocolate in a large communal trash been at work! I plan to clean my house of junk from top to bottom when I get home. I am serious about this divorce! CLM

A Chocolate Bomb!

Ha Ha Ha.... Right after my post about divorcing junk food for good a package of Swiss White Chocolate bars was delivered to me. I am getting rid of this chocolate quick fast and in a hurry. I will not use this as a way to go back on my word to myself. I admit honestly that I had a few bites of one bar, but that will not stop me from discarding the rest of the bars. This is what the next six months is about, totally re-programming my mine. I have to understand that every gift isn't truly a gift, in a sense that it is a blessing to your life. That chocolate is the equivalent to a case of wine being dropped off on an alcoholic's door step on the first day of their recovery. I may have shared a quick kiss with my old husband junk food, but I will not allow this to become an affair and I am definitely not getting back with him again!!!!!!!!!!! I am going through with this divorce!!!!!!! CLM

Getting a Divorce from Junk Food!

Getting a Divorce from Junk Food! Oh I tried delayed gratification, moderation and all that eat what you want, stop when you get full stuff and it just did not work for me. It is time to face the music, after 3 going on 4 years of trying to get this weight-off, the one thing I have not done is totally and completely give up the Junk. I have been a junk food junkie. Well no more! I know what junk I need to divorce (chips, crackers, candy, sweets, ice cream, fried foods etc) I don't need to give these things up for a short time I need to give these up for good, which is different than a diet. I need to get off this roller-coaster and never look back! Today is the day I am kissing the junk good bye for good. I don't care how much weight I lose, I am not looking for a specific number, but I am looking to be free of this junk food addiction for good! I will put my all into getting free. My history has shown that I can practice restraint. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs. I waited until I got married to have sex, I gave up meat for over 10 years and I am going to kick these poor eating habits to the curb too! I know what works for me and that is total elimination. It will be hard, I am giving myself six months to kick all these habits cold turkey! I know I will come out better because of it, having closed the doors to diabetes, breast cancer and other illness. CLM

Delayed Gratification!

Yesterday was my first day of trying on the Delayed Gratification. It was truly an enlightening experience. I learned that I am able to put off a craving for 24hrs. Now, let me real, for a brief moment I did have to fight the urge to just put some thing in my mouth. Putting food in my mouth has been a long time habit, so it too a little effort. One I made the decision all I needed was a little push to follow through. I did not feel the pressure I normally feel when I go on total restriction plans. I had no craving for any food, nor did I feel like I had to constantly distract myself to keep from eating. I felt energy and peace. Bonus, I walked for half an hour this morning. The walk left me feeling energized, but not rushed. The thirty minute walk is my new baseline for walking and I am making peace with that. It is just enough time to feel like I did something without feeling like it is taking up too much of my time. Thirty minute windows are not difficult to find, compared to entire hours. CLM

July- Aug 2012 Updates!

July- Aug 2012 Updates! Since losing my 10lbs in May 2012 by calorie counting on livestrong.com and walking I began searching for a more sane way to lose. Counting calories became very difficult while I was out of my element, and I decided I needed some thing that would work for me in the long haul. I did not want to regain my weight so I rejoined Weight Watchers. The point system of tracking was even more work for me than the calorie counting! I did enjoy going to the meetings, but I dreaded the scale. I began to realize that a diet was not the answer to my over weight problem. I started going to group therapy for compulsive eaters as well as began going to Overeaters Anonymous meetings. I discovered that I am a compulsive overeater. I also began to read books that inspired me to look beyond the number on the scale and start learning how to truly love and accept myself. As as result of these things I am re-defining the goal of my journey! My journey is no longer about losing weight and getting to a certain number on the scale. My journey is about learning to truly love myself and heal. Part of loving myself is in eating better and taking better care of myself period. My focus for September is as follows: I will continue to learn and work through the OA principles. I will focus on ending my excessive eating and my grazing ( mindless- binge behavior). No food is off limits to me, but the way I eat is definitely changing. I will follow the 3 meal a day structure to help me to stop grazing which is the key for me. I will also be working on delayed gratification as well as portion control. Part of putting an end to excessive eating will be not allowing myself to a variety of treats any more. A typical binge for me would be eating a large amount of a variety of junk such as string cheese, fruit-snacks, crackers or chips and chocolate, topped off with ice cream. Frequently when I would binge I would go from snack type to snack type like one big party! Well I am putting an end to the party. There will be no more snack combo packs for me! Serving size matters. I will also no longer be eating giant bags of anything, nor will I be eating multiple small bags of any thing. One will suffice, one kind and one serving! In terms of my body,I am learning to be happy now! I desire to maintain my current size and then smooth out the rough edges a little so that I am as Queen Latifah say's," A Size Healthier." I am already much happier and more calm. This month I plan to slay the fast food demon as well. Will write all about it at the end of September early October. I am thinking about sharing my thoughts with my youtube family soon! nylorac1984 CLM

Why Victory is Scary!

Why victory is scary. Nothing scares me more than victory. So I had a perfect week of eating, exercise. I managed to lose 10lbs in a month. Ok, I did the work, so now what, how do I move forward? What happens when I make a mistake after I have done so well? I think this is my greatest challenge. I have to learn that this journey to become healthy and love myself is not just about the ten pounds I lost. If I ever hope to move forward I must understand that weight-loss is like playing football. You move forward, but some times you earn and penalty and have to move back to the 50 yard line. Some times you win a big game one week and lose the game the next week. I may not have an undefeated record, but I can make sure that I ultimately when the weight-loss war. I know that just as it is a struggle to lose this is preparation for the greater struggle to maintain and that the lessons I learn now and will give me the strength I need while maintaining my weight-loss. CLM

200lbs by Jan 1st 2013

I will get down to 200lbs by Jan 1st 2013. How I will get there! 1. I will walk 30 min mon-fri, 60 min on sat and sun 2. I will drink only water. 3. I will fast from tv. 4. I will eat three meals per day. 5. I will eat yogurt and nuts for breakfast daily. 6. I will eat a lunchable turkey and cheese for lunch daily. 7. I will eat a salad and a veggie patty for dinner every night. Starting weight 273lbs in June 1st CLM